No income for me.

I’ve just been notified that summer classes at the community college where I work have been canceled. No job. No income. I’m 42 and have few prospects. I’m an artist and art instructor. What few other things I have done job-wise are so far in my past that I’m really not sure what else I would do. To make matters worse, the school is cutting most non-lecture classes next fall. Studio classes simply do not hold enough students. There goes that income as well.

I really don’t get it though. Both of my classes this spring are not only full, the wait list for one has 4 people on it and the other class has 10!

The funny thing is my student loans are on deferment. I was making too little this year to make my payments! Ha ha! They’ll be getting even less from me next year. I will have nothing to give.

I guess I’d better enjoy being an artist while I can. I may have to give it up entirely by this summer. The sad thing though, if I cannot be an artist then what is the point. A student of mine did a piece showing a person breathing music. She said music to her was like oxygen. She would die without it. I feel the same about art – having a little trouble breathing…